Things that $ Can Buy

Once in a while, I get into shallow mode and dream up all the delightful things that money can buy...This is from a list I made last year:

Endless supply of Body shop Olive bath stuff
Black dress with metal applique from Zara
Grey and white bubble dress from top shop
A comprehensive insurance policy + savings plan
Perfect Black Heels
Tailored tunic dress(es)
Pink tops (I don't really have those)
Holidays
Elf boots
Earl Grey Ginger Pudding @ PS Cafe
Muscato by the crate (Browns Brothers white)
Sentosa Cove House(s) @ Ocean Drive
500 Days of Summer OST
3 door Wardrobe
Sealy mattress (cushion firm silver award)
Solid beechwood queen bed frame with headboard of my dreams
Tiffany white gold mesh wire ring- massive on pointer
Sashimi brunch every Sunday
Dentist appointment twice a year
Gym membership for 2
Glucosamine
Steve Madden shoes-Kkobra and Bianna

The idea is to have some realistic items I can easily get short term....and I am ticking them off one by one...makes life a happy transit lounge...wait till I get to item no.12...

I am watching Sippy migrate my Aldo shoe box (another failed attempt to find the perfect black heels). He had pushed it to the floor and dragged it methodically to the far corner of the room. Satisfied, he sits down to observe his master piece. He does all this without forgetting to randomly check my expression. Sometimes, despite the mess they create, I can't help but feel an awful lot of tenderness for the 3 MONSTERS. Life would have been so bland without them... then again maybe I'm just easy going like that... K is right, I probably will end up as the cat lady..old spinster with her cats...oh well... as long as there is love (between myself and some creature or other) and food...

That reminds me...I have to pen something down.... Was discussing Rap music with the Del last night and I told him I could rap too... and to prove it I did...erm... sort of....

It had something to do about love and beef burgers...The simple basic human needs... Why complicate your life in an already complex society...cut it down.. simplify...

The Old Life vs. The New Life

The old life was documented, at times painfully and cringe-worthily, here:

http://www.ellyfernoaks.blogspot.com and here: http://ellyfernoaks.diaryland.com

I am learning not to be embarrassed by it. It was, though sad to say, me.. what I was makes me what I am today.

No I am no stranger to blogging... Have blogged on and off for more than 10 years now. It feels different however. Is it because I am older now or simply that there are too many considerations?... probably both.

In the old life, I never hesitated to include full names, disclose actual feelings and often in more colourful terms than necessary. I wrote with no misgivings that it can and will possibly hurt another person. I wrote freely and i do not regret it. When you do not think... the actual act is always easier. I must however write with new complications and new challenges chained to my will to spill again ... that is the way it must be and for the longest time it confounds me and keeps me from starting to blog again.

I suppose blogging is made more difficult now.. my life revolve mainly around work (which I know better than to leak details into cyberspace) and personal issues which I care not to divulge.

OK I will write again... I will throw aside the excuse of writer's block in favour of it being another challenge I must conquer. After all, writing like everything else (being embarrassed by your past included) requires practice.

Resurrection

Is there any better time to start writing again than a quiet boring afternoon, when the sheer idea of your own mortality turns all your thoughts into little self absorbed cyclones you claim to be "introspective"?

If there is such a time for resurrecting my half baked writing skills...This is not quite it.

If...however, there is that perfect moment for self absorbed twitter... here it is.